這暑假.

I feel like I’m on the verge of pulling my hair out. I hate that I’m feeling like this and worrying about school work when it’s summer and all I want to do is go to the beach or hang out all night.

And Beast. Comeback. Now? Why now?
Whatever. I’ve already made an impulse buy and preordered their Midnight Sun album. I didn’t even hesitate. At least I didn’t hesitate enough to keep me from running to grab my wallet.

My heart’s still thumping from watching their teaser.

I don’t know what this summer is doing to me. Buying things without thinking much about it. Stressing out over homework and finishing assignments earlier than it’s due. Feeling super ugly. Praying consistently. Waking up early. Forcing myself to let go. I can’t say this feels very good, but I appreciate it somewhat.

Anxiety or whatever.